I can’t believe it’s been over a week since I had to say goodbye to my Lily girl, and if I’m being honest (which I always am!), it’s been one of the most challenging weeks of my life. Yes, it is getting easier, but I don’t think the heartache will ever fully go away. I still cry every day, sometimes multiples times a day – usually in the morning, at 4:30 in the afternoon, and at night when I’m laying in bed. The morning and 4:30 because these were the times Lily used to remind me it was time to eat, and the evening I guess because my mind and body slow down, forcing me to focus on my thoughts.
Heartache comes in many forms, and this week I’ve suffered one of the worst heartaches I’ve ever felt. I lost my best friend.
I got Lily in 2005 as a 12-week old adorable puppy. She wasn’t expected – my boyfriend at the time gave her to me for Christmas, and at first, I was a little overwhelmed because I was in college and also working full-time. And also never expected a dog! I didn’t know how I was going to manage taking care of a puppy, but of course I could never send her back!
From day one I was in love with this pup. I took her everywhere that I could and I loved her beyond words. Lily has lived in 7 different houses with me and lived in 3 different cities. She traveled across the country with me and was there for me every step of the way these past 12 years – including my labor with Lucy, never leaving my side until it was time for me to go to the hospital.
Baby Clark is set to arrive any day now and Bryan and I are trying to stay patient, but it’s proving to be a challenge. We’ve been pretty prepared for her arrival for quite some time now – the hospital bag is packed, the house is cleaned, the nursery is done, and we have some meals in the freezer for when we get home from the hospital. But one thing I hadn’t done was make some grab n’ go snacks for us to have around the house – something I was told is very important, especially when you’re breast feeding.
Apparently breastfeeding moms get very hungry during all hours of the day…
I recently made a Costco run and grabbed some fruit bars and Clif Bars to have around the house for us, but guess what? As we’ve been impatiently waiting, we’ve consumed most of them! So yesterday I took some time to restock our stash and I made Soft & Chewy Homemade Granola Bars.
It’s been a tough week on the home-front…I haven’t been feeling my best – mostly just anxious, overwhelmed and achy. My legs and feet are so swollen that I can barely fit into my shoes (thankfully we live in Florida, where shoes are not always a requirement).
On top of that, Buddy had surgery Tuesday and I was a mess! Nothing big, he just had his teeth cleaned and a few moles/masses removed, but the last time he was under anesthesia it didn’t go very well, so I was one worried momma. I contemplated all day whether or not I had made the right decision by putting him under again, but his mouth has been very painful for awhile now, and the guilt I felt as I watched him suffer everyday outweighed my fears of another anesthesia. Needless to say, I was a nervous wreck all morning…
Speaking of time, I’ve been busy getting stuff ready for the arrival of our sweet baby girl – hard to believe she will be here in less than 6 weeks (unless she decides to arrive late of course). Who knew having a baby took such preparation?! I mean, I know when they arrive it’s a lot of work, but man, there has already been so much preparation and she’s still in my belly!
Looking for a new, healthier way to make lasagna? Well you’ve come to the right place! This Butternut Squash and Spinach Lasagna recipe is sure to knock your socks off!
And because it’s made with butternut squash, it’s a great choice for a vegetarian main dish. Plus, it’s healthier! The butternut squash is stuffed with spinach and combines three of my favorite cheeses: Ricotta, Parmesan, and Mozzarella, to create the ultimate comfort food.
Do y’all ever have a craving for a big, juicy burger?
I do. ALL OF THE TIME.
Only my burger cravings are of the meatless kind. 🙂 This might be boring for some, but nothing beats a good Veggie Burger IMO. In fact, some of the best burgers I can remember eating have been meatless.
Don’t believe me? Well, I’m here to change your mind.